Author Archives: Tessa Apa

Attention Seeker – and the lemon tree

My lemon tree is not beautiful. Nor is it bountiful. But this year, it grew a small crop of lemons.   Have you ever held a freshly picked lemon in two hands? Have you ever spent time just breathing it in? Five deep breaths to awaken more than just your nose.  The simple beauty andContinue reading “Attention Seeker – and the lemon tree”

How to know the answer to every question and prayer you ever asked…..

Time answers all questions Exposes all truth With no way to cheat Or cajole Or manipulate Time is deaf to your pleas And prayers All truth and longed for answers Held and hidden Safe In time All things will be settled All questions will be answered All truth will be known

Passion Changes Everything – even if it’s only 1%

Flashes of truth and passion make me falter. Falter as I fold washing and make beds. Falter as I prepare meals and earn money. Can the two unite? Is it possible to live in this world, serving family and place, while also departing into the space where none of it matters? Can I be trueContinue reading “Passion Changes Everything – even if it’s only 1%”

Big Bang Theory – an altered perception

There is a winding path lined with splendid trees, no two the same. A path strewn with leaves of all colours and crackles, and the occasional tree root that yawns up through the damp earth. One has to be mindful, not only does it twist and turn, it is also surrounded by a forest fullContinue reading “Big Bang Theory – an altered perception”

Learning to Wait

This gift Wrapped tight, edges sealed, ribbon double knotted No clue No glimpse Impatience has me shake and squeeze, pick and scratch I want it now This gift This promise Now Not tomorrow When it’s ready Nor the next day When I’m ready I am of the now generation The I refuse to wait generationContinue reading “Learning to Wait”

Hello Silence My Old Friend

Quiet sits off centre Waiting Waiting to rise above to-do lists with no end Waiting to be heard   In a busy world we must notice Choose To sink below persistent clamour To reach the quiet place Where even silence has a sound Blood drumming Breath flowing Spirit humming   In the quiet I amContinue reading “Hello Silence My Old Friend”

I Need Reminding

I need reminding. The glow of inspiration fades and I am left empty. I need reminding. Often. The hunger for more and the path towards it grows dim and blurry. I am lost and need reminding. The flash of light that illuminates truth, flickers and dies in the monotony of daily life. I am leftContinue reading “I Need Reminding”

Mastering The Art of a Rush Free Day

TODAY, I will take my time. Today, I will stretch in bed and not leap out of it, or insist on making it before breakfast. Today, I will not make any to-do lists Today, I will not think too much about what I am going to do NEXT Today, I will ignore the anxiety thatContinue reading “Mastering The Art of a Rush Free Day”